WHAT! Manoj Bajpayee Had A ‘Passing’ SUICIDAL Thought During His Struggling Days; Actor Recalls, ‘It Was Very Hard To Keep Up Mental Sanity’

Manoj Bajpayee recently opened up about his struggling days and recalled how he traveled to Delhi from Bihar with Rs 120

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WHAT! Manoj Bajpayee Had A ‘Passing’ SUICIDAL Thought During His Struggling Days; Actor Recalls, ‘It Was Very Hard To Keep Up Mental Sanity’
Manoj Bajpayee is one of the most sought-after actors of his generation in the Hindi film industry. Having started his journey with theatre, he often opens up about his humble beginnings, He moved to Delhi from Bihar at a young age to pursue his dream with Rs 120 in his pocket, given to him by his father, and tirelessly worked for around 18 hours. During a recent interaction with Sushant Sinha on YouTube, he also revealed that he had to learn Hindi and English after coming to Delhi. Recalling how every day was a ‘new challenge’ back then, he added, “It varied from rent, monthly expenses, bus fare, food and to make sure to attend theatre every day and learn the craft. This was my life for 10 years.”

Hailing from the village of Bettiah, Manoj stated that he travelled by train for over 2 days with her friend’s brother from Bihar to Delhi with Rs 120. He added, “We were young, so we had the ability to bear the physical exhaustion, but there wasn’t enough maturity. It was very hard to keep up mental sanity with the kind of challenges we went through every day. I had to learn Hindi, English. There was this professor in drama school, she came and said, ‘First fix his language and then we will do the rehearsals’, that came as a shock to me.” ALSO READ: WHAT! Manoj Bajpayee Shared Cigarettes With Shah Rukh Khan During Theater Days? Here’s What Bhaiyya Ji Actor Reveals


The 55-year-old actor went on to share how he took the help of his friends to buy him food when he did not have the money after buying a bus pass. He added. “Back in the room, we were five of us, so they used to cook food, some or the other person used to cover for me. I just had a kurta, leather slippers, and a pair of jeans. This was all I had. I kept all of this in a tin box, which I still have with me. Everything I had used to fit in that tin box.” ALSO READ: Manoj Bajpayee Visits Mahakaleshwar Jyotirlinga Temple In Madhya Pradesh To Seek Blessings Ahead Of Bhaiyya Ji Release – SEE PIC

Working 18 hours a day and walking miles to reach his acting school, when he didn’t have enough money for bus fare, took a toll on his mental health. The Sirf Ek Bandaa Kaafi Hai revealed that after getting rejected thrice for admission from the National School of Drama. He added, “I went into such a depression where I didn’t know how to face the near and dear ones. And when you only have one plan you feel as if all doors have been closed. It was during this time that I had a passing suicidal thought that people made headlines out of but that wasn’t the case, it was just a passing that people experience while depressed.”

On the work front, Manoj Bajpayee is currently enjoying the release of Bhaiyya Ji. Touted as the 100th film of his career, the film is directed by Apoorv Singh Karki. The actioner is their second collaboration after Sirf Ek Bandaa Kaafi Hai. The actor will be next seen in Raj and DK’s The Family Man season 3.
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