Sonali Bendre’s Latest Heartfelt Post: I Allowed Myself To Feel The Pain, To Indulge In Self-Pity
In a long message, Sonali Bendre opens up about her journey till now after cancer diagnosis. Shares a beautiful picture along with it
On July 4, Sonali Bendre announced that she is suffering
from high grade cancer and has rushed to New York for treatment.
Since then she has shared multiple posts documenting her battle with deadly
C. In her latest post, Sonali talks about the ups and downs during her
ongoing treatment and how feeling negative emotions isn’t wrong. Her heartfelt
note reads:
“I knew that if I allowed fear to overtake me, my journey
was doomed. Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and
so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I
decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.” –
Cheryl Strayed, Wild.
Over the past couple of months, I have had good days and
bad ones. There have been days when I’ve been so exhausted and in so much pain
that even lifting a finger hurt. I feel like sometimes it’s a cycle… one that
starts off with physical pain and leads to mental and emotional pain. The bad
days have been many… Post chemo, post-surgery and the like… where even just
laughing hurts.
Sometimes it felt like it took everything I’ve had to
push past it… a minute to minute battle with myself. I got through it knowing
that even though I was fighting a long drawn out, draining battle… it was one
that was worth the fight.
It’s important to remember that we’re allowed to have
those bad days. Forcing yourself to be happy and cheerful all the time serves
no purpose. Who are we being fake and putting on an act for?
I allowed myself to cry, to feel the pain, to indulge in self-pity… for a short while. Only you know what you’re going through and it is fine to accept it. Emotions aren’t wrong. Feeling negative emotions isn’t wrong. But after a point, identify it, recognize it and refuse to let it control your life.
It takes an immense amount of self-care to get out of
that zone. Sleep always helps, or having my favourite smoothie after chemo, or
just talking to my son.
For now, as my treatment continues… my visual focus
remains to just get better and get back home.
It’s yet another test…
Student all my life…
Learning all my life…
#OneDayAtATime
