I am
awestruck by her beauty as she has been my childhood idol. At the age of 43,
Manisha Koirala still looks eternally beautiful. As she downs a glass of water
before we start our chat, I start humming her classic songs in my head.
However, I gather concentration and initiate the conversation.
Excerpts from
the interview:
Which aspect of
Dear Maya excited you to take up the project?
The script, the
story and the newness of the whole concept. I was waiting for a good script.
So, when Mukesh Chhabra (casting director) called me and asked me to read Dear
Maya’s script, I was really excited. I immediately called up Sunaina Bhatnagar,
who is the writer and the director of the film. 
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I couldn't
recognise you as Maya when the first look released- it’s a drastic
transformation. What went behind sketching out the look?
Well, a lot of
thinking and brainstorming. It's a character of a lady who locks herself up for
20 years in a haveli. We thoroughly discussed a few important aspects of the
character like- how would she look, how would the clothes be, how will her eyes
express. We did a lot of look tests, costume rehearsals and finally, Maya
Devi's character came alive.
In the film,
Maya Devi misses love in her life, have you personally ever felt the absence?
Not really,
because Maya Devi's character is way different to what I am in real life. I
really had to struggle to understand her frame of mind. The kind of fear she
experiences to actually lock herself for 20 years was disturbing.
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So, did the
character stay with you even after you completed the shoot?
Absolutely, as a
lot of scenes were disturbing. There was a strange feeling inside me, for
example, in one scene Maya picks up the wedding costume of her mother (which
has been packed and kept somewhere in the haveli) and tries it on in front of
the mirror. It was very uncomfortable for me to feel the kind of pathos this
woman has- it was quite an impactful film overall.
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The director of
Dear Maya, Sunaina Bhatnagar, said, “I needed an actress who can be vulnerable
and strong at the same time.” How do you define yourself?
I would say
that's quite an interesting observation (laughs). But, it's accurate also
because there is childlike vulnerability and innocence in me, but during the
highs & lows of my life I discovered that all human beings have this innate
strength which they are not aware of till they hit rock bottom, till they reach
a point where they don't have any other option but to come out strong.
What are the
similarities between you and Maya?
Nothing at all,
but I have done my best with the character.
At the launch of
Dear Maya, filmmaker Imtiaz Ali confessed that he has a huge crush on you. What
do you have to say about that?
(Laughs) He's
somebody I am in awe of.
Have you seen
his films?
Yes, he makes
beautiful love stories and he is an incredible director. He caught me
blushing that time
(laughs).
If Imitiaz Ali
pitches a script to you based on your life or any other script, what will your
reaction be?
I would jump on
it!
How has the
industry changed since you first started your career in early ‘90s?
I see a lot of
change- mostly good. Level of professionalism has increased. People are focused
about their work; younger generation is highly talented and motivated. Even the
two young bright actresses who are working with me in Dear Maya are so
well-informed. Nowadays everything is in your hand (laughs), the news reaches
you quicker.
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Unlike you, a lot of times, senior actresses refuse to accept elderly roles as most of them are not ready to do it...
I have always believed that I am an actor first. My loyalty is towards doing the role with all my heart than to look pretty. For example, when I saw Balraj Sahani's Do Bigha Zamin, I didn’t see a star in it; I saw the character he played. My responsibility is to be that part and give 100% to it, and if that means I have to compromise with my looks, I am fine with it.
After Dear Maya, you will be playing Nargis Dutt in Sanjay Dutt’s biopic...
I had reservations before signing the film because I don't want to be typecast. When I weighed the pros and cons of playing Nargisji and working with Hirani v/s my insecurities, I decided to go for the role.
Back in 2012, you said in an interview, “I consider Ranbir Kapoor as the best actor” and now in 2017, you are shooting with him for the biopic, how has the experience been?
Ranbir is a brilliant actor. What I really love about his work is that he's so subtle and his performance is never loud or melodramatic.
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Did the Dutt family help you in understanding Nargis’ role?
I met Priya Dutt at one of the events, where we exchanged some notes. She also gave me a book for more research.
Talking about the role of a mother, you also said that you will adopt a child, when did you realise that you are ready? What are your plans
Hopefully, by end of this year or next year if everything falls in place.
Coming to Dear Maya, the two girls are concerned about Maya but who stood by you in your tough time?
My family.
What is more important to you – fame or success and why?
I think both have their own place. I don't consider one over the other. Success is good because it means your work has been appreciated and fame means you are recognized for your good work, which is excellent but fame can also be for the wrong reasons.
You have also been involved in a lot of NGO activities, are you happy? Are people coming forward to help or are there still constraints?
I think in today's time, there's a lot of openness. Lot of people are keen to know, learn and understand. For me, I love to know about people, their struggles and how they dealt with it. Even during my health crisis, I wanted to know more about people who have survived this, I wanted to know what they did right -- so that could help me. So, today when I give a talk on various topics like health, all of them are based on my personal experiences. They are my life lessons, and even if one person can benefit from that talk, it will be great. I was at the receiving end at some point in my life and I realized the value when some people came forward to help and guide me.
So, did you question God at any point during your testing time?
I questioned but not the question that you are thinking (laughs). When I hit that space, the rock bottom, I looked back and thought to myself- 'What did I do with my life? If this is the end of my life, did I live well? - Such questions compelled me to go deep within me and today I am living with that kind of awareness.
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As we wrap up
our conversation, here’s a quick rapid fire where we will give you a few
options and you are supposed to pick 1 and tell us why
Khamoshi
Akele Hum Akele
Tum
1942: A Love
Story
Dil Se
Bombay
Manisha: Bombay,
because it's my No. 1 favourite film. It was very relevant in those days and I
believe in the message the film has.
Mani Ratnam
Vidhu Vinod
Chopra
Sanjay Leela
Bhansali
Subhash Ghai
Ram Gopal Varma
Manisha: It's
really difficult. If I must say, then, Mani Sir because of the way he brings
out turmoil and conflicts between two characters and yet creates a love story
in that.
Aamir Khan
Shah Rukh Khan
Sanjay Dutt
Ajay Devgn
Salman Khan
Manisha: Aamir
all the way because I love the kind of movies he's making nowadays.
Alia Bhatt
Deepika Padukone
Anushka Sharma
Kangana Ranaut
Priyanka Chopra
Sonam Kapoor
Manisha: All
of them have amazing talent. Kangana, Deepika and Alia are my favourites. It's
a difficult choice honestly; I have liked Kangana in Queen, loved Alia in Udta
Punjab and Deepika in Bajirao Mastani. But, will go with Alia.